hey everyone, i am kind of having a rough day today, and i need to release some tension, and maybe vent for a minute or two.
I could not be happier being a new mommy, my little mykenzi means the world to me, i would do anything, go to any heights for her, to make her happy and get her what she needs, but it is so hard to do all of this when her father wont even acknowledge her existence!!! there are some nights that i feel like i screwed up because now she only has me, and a delinquent dad!! he wasnt there for the birth, he hasnt seen her, and when i talked to him for the first time in a month last week, he didnt even ask how she was doing! I know he is her father because we were engaged when i got pregnant, and when i told him i was pregnant, he dipped out, and broke everything off! and he knows that he is her father, but still, he wants nothing to do with her! WHY!?!?!?!? he is treating me like i did this all by myself, and like he had no part in it!!! it is so depressing, i feel sorry sometimes that such an innocent little girl is going to have to learn one day what an inconsiderate and delinquent ****-up her father is!!!
k i feel a little better now, thank for listening lol
on a side note, i was stikcing my tongue out at mykenzi last night, and she was mocking me, she is so awesome to sit and play with, she is starting to have a regular pattern of awake and sleep time, and hen she is awake i jsut sit and play with her, you can see tha happiness in her face! makes me day when i hear her waking up cuz i know ill get to play with her and make her happy!!