Posted by Sue on August 06, 2003 at 12:44:47:
In Reply to: Need advice... posted by Shana on August 06, 2003 at 12:14:31:
: OK, I am due to start school and face the challenge of putting ds in daycare. I don't "HAVE" to go to school, it was something I thought I needed at the time. But I am realizing I can't do it, yet. I am having these dreams about ds and I wake feeling horrible. I have been a SAHM since he was born, though I never planned to. To all the other SAHM's... how did you decide? I am so uncomfortable to even have family watch him, I have this underlying fear something is going to happen to him. I often feel a bit crazy because of this... please tell me I am not alone.
Shana you have such a wonderful oppurtunity to be able to go to school. I want to get back to college so badly and just don't see it happening anytime soon. I am eager to finish my education and would do just about anything to finish my degree. I have tried begging my DH but he is concerned about our finances. Tuition just went up and the books cost a fortune. I keep trying to explain to him that getting my degree will allow me to get higher paying jobs and it will pay off in the long run, but he's a blue collar man and just can't see. It's really hard to have someone else take care of your baby. I only work part-time but still feel as guilty as if I left my son all day. But each day it gets a little easier and he'll be just fine. Your a great Mom for wanting to get your education and that will set an excellant example for your children. I say go to school, if you have the opportunity.